...confused.

Or is it lost?

I'm trying to figure out the next direction that I should go. I mean, my children are able to take care of themselves now. I decided to go back to college and complete my bachelor degree. I'm only one hour from senior standing. In three semesters I could complete my bachelor's and be ready to go for the master's in creative writing. Why? Because I want to finish what I started.

There's some disagreement among my friends as to whether I should do a bachelor's in general studies or English. Charlotte doesn't think a general studies degree will further my career. I'm thinking that at age Purple-3 I don't really have to impress a potential employer. How many people are really going to be interested in hiring someone my age? I know, I know, age discrimination is illegal. But it happens. Look at the U.S. government. If you are older then 37 when you apply, you won't be hired because you have to retire after 30 years.

Maureen's bachelor degree is a general studies degree. She's doing OK. She was working on her master's in writing when she became seriously ill.

Patti disagrees with Charlotte. She thinks the general studies is a viable option for me. But she also has encouraged me to look into the bachelor's in English.

Here's the thing: To go to school, I need a car. To get a car I need a job. I don't think I can work full time, go to school full time and be a wife full time. Nobody can do three full time jobs. Of course, I don't want to work full time. But the newspaper reporter job that I'm thinking of applying for is a full time job.

What do I want to do? Write. What am I doing? Procrastinating. I can't get everything done that I want to do so I sit in frustration and do anything but.

At this stage of the game, I shouldn't be in this position. I should be doing whatever I want to do!

So, what do I want to do? Not make mistakes? Geez! I've done that all of my life. It's time to try something different.